So my best friend (who knows i'm trans) is a member of a local field hockey team and she has told me to join (i have expressed intrest in field hockey) but i am afraid of a few things: a. The power of testosterone, which means if i take up a sport i will become fit and stronger, i don't mind being fit and strong but i don't want to be buff and i am afraid that exercise of any kind will increase testosterone levels in my body and cause my shoulders to broaden (they are about the same width of a female my height) and b. The fact that as a biological male i won't be allowed on the girls team even though i am trans which makes sense it would be unfair to place someone with testosterone on a team filled with estrogen and i remember reading on a report by BeyondBlue that in australia trans individuals are permitted to use the facilities they feel comfortable using but i am unsure if that extend to sports teams. Oh and c. I am far to weak to be of any use to the boys team, well my best friend is fitter and stronger than me so i am unfit for both teams but the difference is much greater between me and the boys team and i would cause them to lose games not to mention boys rough house. (Fun fact: even though i fear pain i actually have a high pain threshold)
