hello im a guy who would constantly fantasize about being a women even at a young age(started when i was about 11) but it may have started when i was younger cause i would wear high heels and walk around like a girl. i would imagine being a women and how nice it would be. I would crossdress in my moms cloths whenever i was home alone and when i started watching porn i would always imagine myself as the female. In my teens my fantasies were lesbian at the start but after about a year they grew into fantasies about being with a man. I love crossdressing even if i dont do it too often and i felt that i should have been born a female but at the same time im perfectly fine being a male plus i try and act as manly as possible i play sports, video games, and love to kick-butt even though im really a kind hearted emotional teddy bear. and ever since i stumbled apon a youtube video about transgenders i have been hurting myself inside trying to figure this stuff out. :bang::help:
What you describe sounds very close to what I experienced when I first started to question my gender. Crossdressing is the best thing I have done since the start. It really helped me to understand myself. I wear female clothing full time at home, and I have started to wear androgynous clothing in public. I never felt extreme dysphoria for my body, but there is a emotional disconnect. The best thing you can do is try to find a counselor for gender identity, and to take baby steps toward transitioning if that is what you want to do. What ever you do, do not push yourself over your limits. Transitioning is not a race, and should not be treated as such. The longer you can take to understand yourself the better the end result will be. I know I want to get HRT, and maybe SRS, but that will be a long way off. Right now I want to try to go too some drop in groups in my area, and meet some other IRL trans people. Good luck on your adventures.
