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Business induced disconnect and dysphoria

Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by Thessa Blossom, Jul 22, 2015.

  1. Thessa Blossom

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    Location:
    Vienna
    Gender:
    Female (trans*)
    I'm just curious if anyone experience(d) the same.

    Working in a often testosterone heavy industry (at least in my region) I noticed that I get totally disconnected from my female side during the day (e.g. when on a business trip or managing my staff) but in the evening in the hotel room it erupts like a volcano.

    It's much better when I'm alone in the Home Office, I assume you can imagine why.

    Beginning of this week I was under the shower in my hotel room weeping and wishing that I can just tear down my skin and release my true self, hoping that nobody will notice my change the day after and business continuous as usual.

    This disconnectedness during the day feels so ... I can't find a fitting word for it ... but it really sucks. :icon_sad: