I still really have no idea what I am but the thing is that I feel like a boy but like a girl to I completely don't understand "gender lines" is what people tell me I like wearing makeup and girl close I can't really show the real me me in public and I'm really scared
Sounds Bigender, feeling two genders simultaneously. And it is really scary to put yourself out there in the real world especially in a homophobic/transphobic culture, if you'd be unsafe coming out then obviously do what's best for you. But even for cishet folks, hiding you are and building your life around what others might or do think of you is unhealthy and will cause you only further pain down the road.
