I don't know if anyone else has had this problem or is dealing with it currently, but so far no one I've talked to knows what I am. I was born a female and have been emotionally and somewhat physically influenced by my brother; I act and try to dress more manly than womanly. I never wondered about it, for it's always seemed most natural to me. I have not yet been able to obtain many men's clothes as I have not talked to my parents about my questioning and don't know when I'll be able to. I've been a tomboy for as long as I remember and have been questioning for many months if I'm more than just that. Basically I feel that I have the brain and emotions of a male and the body (and clothing) of a female, but I want more than anything to change my physical appearance. However, I would not go as far as completely becoming a male, as I feel I would be upset with being only one gender. I do wish my breasts were smaller or non-existent because I feel ugly and unnatural with them, but I do not wish to have male genitalia. I have considered binding but I'm really scared of the consequences. For now, I try to wear baggier clothing. I would like very much to look more like a boy and dress in men's clothes, but also sometimes pursue my original gender and wear more feminine clothing. I wish I could just switch genders whenever I want to but hey, life just isn't that great. So, bottom line, does anyone know what gender identity I am, if there even is one out there that describes me?
Thank you so much! I see now why no one I knew understood exactly my identity, as I actually hadn't heard of bigender before. I researched a little more and understand that is exactly what I am. Thanks again
I would do some exploring. There are a lot of identities that involve switching between genders. There are identities like genderfluid, bigender, and even pangender. So I would do some more research before you come to a final conclusion.