Stressing out

I don't really know how to start this, but where I work, we have to make sure the bathrooms are cleaned twice a day, and the morning is fine, but when we have to do the afternoon checks, I get extremely uncomfortable checking the women's side. And since I'm not out to the people I work with, they don't know how uncomfortable I get. Usually I like to wait until everyone's out before entering, but sometimes you just can't do it and still say on schedule due to how busy it can get.
Everyone I work with all see me as female, which I don't expect them to see me differently as I'm not out to them, but everyone else sees me as male (who don't know me personally). I just get really uncomfortable and awkward when I have to enter when there's women in there. :tears:

Sorry, I just had to vent.

 

I don't plan on coming out to them since I only have about a month or so left there, and I may never see them again anyways (well maybe my boss, since he's my neighbor).
We do put a "closed for cleaning" up in the mornings since we do the full clean, but in the afternoon's it's usually just a quick check to make sure there's no plugs and what-not. Sometimes the women's side just gets so busy that you're waiting outside for a good 10-15 minutes before being able to enter. I just hope it starts slowing down soon, and people leave!!

 

Yeah I'm quite happy that it's not too much longer, though when I start applying for a new job I really need to tell my parents I want to start going by male pronouns and such, and get new employers to call me by male pronouns and my male name.