This sounds like a joke but unfortunatelly it's not

Well, I've been looking into gender identity for quite some time, trying to find something that could possibly fit for me, but I either overlooked it or there's nothing..

I'm afab, feel like a female (sort of), but I hate every femmine thing about myself. I'm really curvy, big chest and hips, but all I really want is a male body. For the longest time I thought I was ftm, but obviously that's not it. The thing that I feel the closest to right now is agenderflux, but I'm not even sure with that.. I'm seriously not trying to make fun of trans* people with this, this is just how I feel, maybe I'm really just a regular female but maybe there's something that would sound better...