It's a strange phenomena that doesn't quite seem within the realm of the usual transgender scope because I do not experience gender dysphoria except at certain times when I wish to express myself physically as male. However, I do tend to experience frequent genital dysphoria, more often than my gender dysphoria and I wish I could have male genitalia with my female form. This would allow me to experience a more dominant role sexually, whereas as a cisfemale I feel like I am naturally forced into a submissive role or only allowed dominance in niche sexual subgroups such as dominatrix. The idea of being in such a feminine dominant role however is unappealing, as is using such things to imitate male genitalia such as strap ons, that are not a true extension of myself, from which I feel no internal physical responses. I wish to experience dominance as a man does and to experience such sexual things as an orgasm as a man. However, SRS seems impossible for people like me because our dysphoria is not significant enough, we do not have full gender dysphoria, and I think we are largely dismissed and misunderstood. I would however, like the ability to give birth, and if such surgery ever became available to people like me with genital dysphoria, it's possible I would seriously consider getting such surgery after giving birth to my kids (later in life). Androgyny and intersex is the ideal to me. I apologize if this post offends anyone, if it has I have not intended it. Any advice or insight is greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading.
