Today my mom found a cool button shirt, the kind with a collar. I thought it was the coolest thing. i put it on with jeans and whatnot. Put my hair back (cuz im physically a girl) and it was awesome. then i was in the bathroom and wondered would it be the same if i wore it in a girl style (by this i mean that i had a similar shirt and when i wore it i usually buttoned only under the bust). so i started unbuttoning the shirt and soon as i saw my breasts (forgot i was wearing nothing under, usually i wear an undershirt) i thought: this isnt me, this just isnt me. So i let down my hair cuz i was trying to convince myself its nothing, just my normal body hate ya know? And even though the longer hair went better i kept thinking thats not me. This girl with boobs and hair down isnt me. so i buttoned back up and pulled my hair up so you couldnt tell i had girl hair and i felt better, like it fit this way. so yah, i just kinda needed to say that... ---------- Post added 22nd Aug 2015 at 04:34 PM ---------- And by hair went better i meant that it went better with my face type. Pulling back my bangs didnt go good with my face so when i pulled it back up i kept my bangs instead of pinning them back. I felt so much better in that style with 'guy' hair (havent had a hait cut in so long!) And a guy outfit
I hope that just writing about what happened helps relieve stress! Feel free to message me if you need anything
