I'm really stumped. I don't know how to progress. I can't figure out who i am. Anytime that I'm reminded of being a boy i feel just sad and generally upset. Sometimes even dysphoria. Anytime i see something about trans women i feel the absolute NEED to look like them, it's more then admiring. I feel like iv almost had a mental switch from male to female. Then i kind of get snapped back to reality and it's like "oh yeah, I'm a guy, right". The thing is my dysphoria is much less strong then when i started thinking about this. I don't experience it much anymore. Which makes me feel like because of the fact that I'm not feeling it as much anymore that I'm just a guy and that I'm a f*cking idiot. Maybe iv accepted it, yet i keep feeling doubt. There's still not a day that goes by where i don't fantasize or wish i were a girl. Everything about it seems more right. I can't handle the doubt trips. It's almost like I'm back and forth, not like genderfluid but me accepting it. The label genderfluid feels wrong to me. It's not right at all. I don't feel like I'm any gender but trans-female or cis-male. Iv already made a thread about this but i still can't figure out who i am or accept it if i am and I'm so confused and lost.
I don't have any advice but I am the same way, feel like I'm trans male or some form of masculine female. I wish it would just settle and settle on trans male
I'm sorry, I don't have much advice either, but I am glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. The only thing I can think of is, is there anyone you can talk to about this kind of stuff (open minded friends or family), are you able to see a therapist?
I have a trans feiend who's ftm (no hormones) but looks pretty passng. Anyways, they strongly feel like i am.
