Happier doing things after accepting I'm a trans boy?

I definitely got a bit happier once the denial stopped; there's nothing wrong with it so why should I try to be someone I'm not? I can't fully enjoy everything in my life because of dysphoria but I at least know why I wasn't satisfied with things before. Basically I had that annoying feeling that something was out of place but I couldn't figure it out. When I read about butch lesbians I jumped on the idea at the mention of typically masculine expression and identified as that for a short while but still wasn't happy.

 

Yeah, actually, it does feel like that sometimes. When I'm just hanging out in my room (which has always looked like a "boy's room" even when I didn't know I was trans) or doing other things as a guy... yeah, it's a good feeling.

As to what negative feelings went away, not feeling like a strange "girl" and being able to feel like a normal guy definitely makes life more tolerable.

 

I found when I accepted it to myself I was genuinely happy alone with who I am and I'm happier; sense I'm not out of the closet yet I have to put on an 'act' a pretend who society wants me to be and I find that I'm a lot more pessimistic and in more of a depressed state. So yes I do the feeling you are talking about.

 

I can definitely relate to this feeling. Before I knew I was trans I felt extremely hopeless about my life because I simply couldn't live on "like this". After discovering and accepting the fact that i'm trans, I feel like I lost this huge barrier to being hopeful about my future; i wasn't trying to look through a huge brick wall anymore.

 

I can relate. I feel happier since accepting, but anxious because I'm not completely out yet