So, here's this little thing. I've been trying to figure out what I am for - days now, just trying to know what I would be considered as. Maybe it's because I'm not quite so well read, or just sort of a dumb person - but perhaps somebody here would be a bit better at decoding the strangeness that is my life? Anyways, here goes: For a bit, I've considered myself to be a demigirl. Because of my partial connection to femininity - as in, pastel colors, flowers, and delicate dresses? Things along those lines. Now, I like those things, though that's the only reason I classified myself as a demigirl? Because those things were feminine and I do like them? Though - actually being a girl. I... really don't think I identify with actually being a girl. You see? And though while I like those things, I strongly identify with being Androgyne, I suppose? Something that's difficult to tell if masculine or feminine, though... also liking the things that I said I used to consider myself a demigirl? What would that be? Something like feminine-androgynous? that doesn't even exist androgyne is more like the middle ground, so... does it make sense for there to even be a feminine androgyne? This is so confusing, I don't even know. Lastly, my actual preferred pronouns are they/them/their. Now, I don't know if that helps, because I'm not so sure it helps me... Anyways- um, there's that, I guess. This was a mess. I'm so sorry.
Things like androgyny and genderqueer aren't classified only by liking traditionally female things. (You're AMAB, right?) Breaking gender norms is perfectly fine, but I don't think it would be considered another gender. Being uncomfortable in your own body and having physical or social dysphoria would be a tip off that you're a different gender, but only you can tell for sure, cliche as that sounds.
The thing is, being feminine doesn't mean you are or have to be a female. Males can be feminine, wear dresses, but still be straight and cis; same things for females. If you view yourself as more feminine, but not female, then you're not female.
Hmm, yeah, I see that~ That's... actually pretty relieving. As in, things like clothes and interests are gender neutral - I knew that before, - I'm stupid, but I guess now is when it's really just clicking? Also, no- actually. I'm AFAB. But I do have a lot of gender dysphoria, so I guess that's something. So - well, I guess it's something this way. I enjoy culturally feminine things, though actually being a female, the idea of it is terrible? Actually, with this, I think that it would actually just be more accurate to say that I'm androgyne? I actually think so...?
