Am I actually a boy? I still feel ashamed and doubtful sometimes

I had that problem too (well, not the straight thing but it seriously messed me up). You're not being trans for the wrong reason, it definitely sounds like you have some dysphoria. While you're not very confident in your gender, I'd stay away from Tumblr social justice. Just blacklist things that make you feel bad about it, unfollow people, or block posts. X-kit is great.

 

There's no "being trans for the wrong reasons". If you're trans, you're trans.

Gender expressions does not dictate gender identity. You can be as goth as you want and still be a guy. Honestly, I can sorta relate to what you're saying. A masculine girl, at the end of the day, is still a girl and wouldn't want to be seen a guy.

As for the whole relationship thing, I don't really know. All I have to say is that Tumblr can be both a safe haven and a toxic environment at the same time.

 

Well, the only wrong reason is I want this one person/people to like me, and the only way they will is if I am trans.

 

I never identified as a lesbian, but I did have a problem because I used to use Tumblr a lot and I felt bad about myself when I realised I was a guy because all the stuff I read on there sort of made me subconsciously feel like being a guy was worse. It's best to just break out of that mindset.

 

Sound like you might be trans to me. Just so you know, having had androgens working on my body for 23 years, I know that you grow hair in places you never thought that person should grow hair, and you tend to grow a lot more body hair than hair on your head. Working out tends to lead to faster results than it does with women, and you do have more angular than curvy features.

I am in the opposite boat as you. I want no body hair, boobs, feminine voice, a vagina, and sexy curves. Looking at my body depresses the hell out of me since I see the opposite of how I view myself on the inside (a woman with all of the aforementioned traits). My dysphoria is very bad though, and has led to severe depression and multiple suicide attempts, so I am probably on the more extreme end compared to you.

If you feel you are trans and you have always felt that you wanted to be a boy, even before puberty, chances are one hundred percent sure that you are a trans man.

 

The easiest (in my opinion) way to reassure yourself would be to look back on stuff and be like "Oh, yeah, I am a guy." For example when I was little I was like "why does everyone call me a girl when the person looking at me in the mirror is obviously a boy?" And remembering stuff like that helps reassure me that I'm not identifying as a guy for the wrong reasons.