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confused about my gender

Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by leavelesstree, Sep 29, 2015.

  1. leavelesstree

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    hello! im making this question because im exhausted. i'm tired of feeling so "off". i was born female. I feel okay with my female body. not 100%, but still okay. I am pretty much okay with what's between my legs, but i dont like my breasts. i wish the were really small or maybe not there at all. i wish my shape was more straight rather than hourglass which is very feminine. out of the physical, i am really confused. i feel like...a girl because ive been identifying as one for so long, but that's honestly the only reason i feel like a girl. i'm pretty much okay with being called "she" and "her". most of the time i am. but then i get this sudden feeling... this sensation of feeling "off" somehow. it's like i feel okay, but i know i could feel better. more comfortable. when this feeling settles in, i feel less of a girl and more of a feminine boy. that's it. i feel more like an effeminate boy than a girl. and i am so confused about it. look, when i see a guy/man who has feminine mannerisms and isn't exactly masculine, i feel so identified with them. more than with any other type of human being. i smirk so much just seeing these men express themselves. there's something more uncompromising about men, and i feel identified with that. a type of simplicity that women generally don't have. When i look in the mirror i feel disgusted because i don't know what i am. when i wear makeup (because i like to)... i like to think i'm a boy wearing makeup. it feels comforting to pretend even if it isn't true. :help:
     
    #1 leavelesstree, Sep 29, 2015
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  2. baconpox

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    You could be trans, but some of the phrasing made it sound like you just don't like gender roles (like the uncompromising parts). I'd experiment. Wear a binder/packer (even if it's makeshift) that'll probably clear stuff up.