ok, after a few decades in the closet I am trying to figure myself out. When I was around 8, I remember desperately wishing I was a boy so that I could tell my best friend (f) that I loved her. Throughout my life there have been times where I feel like I should have been born with a penis. When I'm handling my own "business" (watching porn, etc) I wish I was the man f'ing the girl. HOWEVER.... I have recently embraced my girly side. Hair, makeup, nails, etc. I still love my tshirts and ball caps, but I am equally comfortably in slacks and a blouse or even *gasp* a dress lol I am a veteran, so I know I have picked up some masculine traits here and there but I'm not sure I would define myself as masculine... yet (other than the makeup/hair/etc) I'm not the dainty little feminine either. I can pull off either if the situation calls for it. I do NOT want to change gender. I was born a woman, I have 6 children, but I am not 'straight', I am polyromantic but borderline asexual... I know that much...just not sure how I would describe my 'gender' with the whole wishing i had a penis so I could *ahem* women... Thoughts? Did any of that make sense?
Hmm...you sound like you are cis to me. Gender identity has nothing to do with sexual preferences and nothing to do with gender expression. Hugs. (*hug*)
