Anyone else experience waaay more dysphoria after finally confusing in someone about being trans? Why is it so much worse?
Maybe because, after you come out to someone, its a big stepping stone in how you accept your own identity therefore your mind is saying, "Oh God. I'm actually trans." Like everything is suddenly real now, there's (seemingly) no turning back. Now your subconscious must face the reality forward. If the dysphoria was previously simmering in a pot of doubt, now its full on boiling because there's essentialy no "but what if I was wrong--" holding it back.
