Hi. I'm Ay. I'm born male. I have no idea what the heck I am now, and am struggling for a group. I once thougnt I was trans. I'm not feminine enough. I once thought I was cis. That's definetly not right. I need to know who I am. I dint know if I'm fluid, genderless, genderqueer, noncomforming or what... This is killing me. :tears: :tears:
Trans- I can never seem to decide on this one. I think I'm not feminine enough, but then again I wish I was... Cis- I don't fit gender norms, and really don't want to.:dry:
Femininity has nothing to do with gender identity. You can be a butch woman or a feminine guy. Anything else? How do you feel about your body or about how people see you?
I understand. I honestly would like to be more feminie in general, I really would. But maybe if it isn't coming nattrualy it isn't for me?:bang:
I can't say why for certain. A few thoughts: -it seems more elegant -its apealling I really can't get much deeper than that, but more feminine is certainly what I want Ay to be.
You can be as feminine as you want, but then again, you can't turn into someone you're not, you need to be the best version of yourself. I'd like my mannerisms to not be as feminine, but it is better to embrace them than live my whole life watching my every move. How do you feel about your body or the way people see your gender? If gender roles and expectations from society didn't exist, would you want to be feminine man or a transgender woman?
My body.. Not a fan of the genitals.. I don't know tlwhat else to say there. How people see me... I really don't like certain words. Dude, man, bro, etc. But he/his isnot as big of a deal.
That sounds a little more like signs of being transgender, though I'm not saying you for sure are, only you can know. Maybe try to experiment with your gender expression, talk to a gender therapist, and do more research, if you feel like you came to terms with identifying as a transgender woman you can start looking into transitioning.
Parents... Tried to come out to mom once, she did not believe it, thought I was causing drama. We forgot about it. I wasn't strong enough to tell her that I really am.
Maybe you're agender or bigender? I think you may be non-binary. So while you're fining a label you could maybe identify as that. I'm just saying. I feel agender and I love being feminine for all those things you described.
