So I've been texting with people in the internet ans just told them I was a boy. (Not mentioned being trans) I really really love it (although I always feel like I'm somehow lying to them..) and feel kind of this fuzzy feeling inside. But then there are these momenta where I do things subconciously. Like when I had terrible back ache and said "Oh, I'm an old lady." I know you're supposed to imagine yourself in the future and see if you see yourself as a man or a woman. To be honest, I don't know. I think I've always kind of saw myself as a woman because I thought I would never be able to be a man.. I just have these mixed feelings at the moment..
It's normal to be in the habit of referring to yourself as a girl or assuming you'll grow up to be one because that's what you were taught to do for your entire life. You spent years thinking you were a girl, being told you were a girl, etc. You spend years assuming you'd have no choice but to grow up to be a woman. It's really not unusual to keep thinking those things for a while out of habit.
