I never thought from a young age I was gay but when I hit my teens I started to watch gay porn and then men started to turn me on and I had feelings for men and all I know is that is I want to be with a man and have a boyfriend but latley these thoughts of women happen and I don't like it there messing with my fantasy's and i m not sexually attracted to women I don't want to be with one and I'm not bisexual I want these to stop I'm happy being gay and can some think there gay but there not because I have had strong feelings for men and in was wondering is this a lie I hope not I really love being gay
Hey, you sort of posted in the wrong forum but that's ok. Could you elaborate on how you feel about women? And it's alright to be bisexual in the same way it is to be gay. It doesn't mean you were wrong about yourself; it just means you didn't have things completely figured out.
Sexual orientation can be somewhat fluid throughout life. It's natural to have some periods when you feel 100% gay, and others where it's more like 70/30 or even 50/50! You hit on a couple important points though: While you say you've been having thoughts of women, you only say you want to be with men. You also say that you're very happy being gay. Those two things combined to me say that there's no problem continuing to think of yourself as gay and living your life accordingly. Even if women creep into your fantasies now and again, and even if you find yourself finding women attractive in real life, if your main interest is in dating and sleeping with men, you're still gay! I'd say try not to stress about it too much. If you're trying to make it go away, you're making it bigger than it has to be and wasting a lot of emotional energy on it. Recognize it and let it float by. It's natural and not a threat to you or your identity!