Short version - always felt different, never female, never pictured myself growing up into an older female. Idolised the male form, work out and currently pretty muscular. Been questioning my gender a lot recently, beard envy and chest hair envy. Not too dysphoric about my genitalia so that's something. So, I went to the docs and he didn't know what to say, other than "are you considering harming yourself?" Of which I am not and would never do that (no judgement, just not in that place). He told me to book in with the practice counsellor for a couple of weeks later. Met with her, she couldn't help me much. Told me to google...GOOGLE...for specialist counsellors and she couldn't recommend anyone. So in other words, I have to actively scour for someone to talk to about my issues, fears and uncertainties. However, if I made it clear I did want to transition then all the resources would be open to me. How messed up is that? What a significant gap in mental health. Stupid England. Anyway, I finally found 3 contacts on a local trans site. I choose to email the most qualified from that list. Waiting for a response. Anyone else experience this nonsense with the U.K. Health system?? I asked for help and the door was closed. Thank goodness for the Internet.