To all whom it may concern, I haven't been on the site for over a month, due to difficult living situations after my coming out to family. To be honest, its been extremely difficult for me. I was promptly and strongly rejected by my parents. They're good people and I will always love them, but they have said I face disownment (and essentially, hell) if I transition. And so I'm stuck, under constant supervision and suspicion from them. They also decided to 'get help' for me and now I am undergoing reparative therapy. I had spent considerable time talking to them the week after I came out - to which I was pressed to reconsider my options and 'recant.' I honestly tried so hard to make myself believe I was female, to consider a future without transition. But I cannot, and I know that now. Perhaps by the end of the year I can manage to leave home and secure living on my own, since that is what it may take. I know I cannot speak to my family again concerning transition - they have made up their minds. I have to stay strong, alone and silent. It hurts, to know I will lose my family. I love them so much, and they are all I have. I wish they could see that it isn't a choice for me. They aren't evil and I know they only mean well, but they cannot understand. Will not. I just ask for support and prayer during this time. I hope to visit occasionally, if this backdoor can be accessed again (since I technically don't have internet access). Cheers. Your brother, Alec.
I can't imagine how hard of a situation that is to be in. Stay strong, brother, you'll make it through, I know this. (*hug*)
Alec, old boy, you might want to get more tech savvy, or to get a device and stash it somewhere, so you can suck every free wifi around. I think you are dealing with this situation admirably. Just go with the flow and keep safe. Things will change, I know, they changed for me, for many of us There is a future for you, live for it.
