Opposite sometimes for me. I really feel your pain, though--I imagine your desire to break the gender norms is 10x harder than the days I want to wear a tie... and end up putting it back on the shelf because it feels weird. Takes guts but try it out--and do it with people who make you feel safe. I hope you're out to some friends (seems like you are on your stats) so you can feel safer.
Every day, whenever I have a moment to myself without distraction, I think about living as a female. And then I get depressed, convinced it can never happen for me. But damned if I'm not gonna try anyway. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
