How to teach your mind to stop thinking binary

Hello. So I haven't posted on here for a bit because after my trip, my opinions on my gender got confusing to me. I hate being seen female or male. I don't like it when people see me as a male, and I want to tell them I'm female, though I'm very uncomfortable with being female. I like being female for so many reasons, but I'm afraid that if certain people know I'm not fully female, they'll treat me differently and such. I would be fine if I was a male tomorrow for myself, but socially, I wouldn't want to make new friends or people I talk to think of me differently. It's weird to describe. But anyways, my mind keeps trying to put me in male or female, this or that. I am not male or female, but my mind wants me to be one or the other. It's so hard to think something differently if you've thought this your whole life until a few months ago. How do you train your mind to stop thinking like this? Thanks.

 

Thanks for your response .

I keep having this dilemma in my mind, like, am I this or that, and not whom I really am. I don't know how to stop thinking like this and it's annoying me.