The shitwar with my parents seems to have ended? Basically my mom thought it's her fault and that I don't like her. Duh. I don't like when she's pressuring me to be someone I'm not, but I like --her--, obviously. She seems to start to understand. I tried to pretend in front of her, but I can't handle emotionally, and I seem awkward, once unblocked, I can't really stop. It seems to be an avalanche. One small stone initiates and over time it becomes a natural disaster, piece by piece, grain to grain, and a whole mountain falls apart, I can only try to surf on the top of this tsunami and not sink. So... I pretty much couldn't hide, I couldn't psychologically handle, I stood up for myself, and hence shitwar. I had to confront this expectation at some point. Fortunately, I had friends to talk to about this. And mom began understanding I'm my own person and it has nothing to do with her, that I was just never given the chance to be myself. I went out with her and she seemed to be okey, unlike a week or two earlier. Good vibes :icon_bigg Maybe we will have a family photo one day on which I'm wearing a shirt and a tie :icon_wink
