I suppose I'm somewhat genderfluid at the moment. I've imagined myself to be a danged pretty girl. With a few minor alterations to my body, I'd have been danged pretty, truly. There are so many cute outfits and dresses I haven't got to wear yet. And I never got the chance to experiment with makeup or hair dye. I know you guys might say to just experiment anyway, and I'll try- but the fact is- unless I change my gender (which has a lot of reasons to make me feel terrified to do so)- I'll never get the chance to wear as many cute outfits as a ciswoman would. :/ Especially because I'm terrified to tell anyone about the fluidity I've experienced besides my therapist.
Of course- but I can't go out or dress up at home (while living with my parents)- since I'm not out about my current status.
