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Back to this forum after confusing period

Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by Nike007, Aug 30, 2016.

  1. Nike007

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    Location:
    Ontario, Canada
    Gender:
    Androgyne
    Gender Pronoun:
    They
    Sexual Orientation:
    Bisexual
    Out Status:
    Some people
    Greetings. I last on here in May of 2016. I decided to come back. My main struggle was dealing with my new diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder (ASD) - level 1 and a learning disability/difficulty. It conflicted a bit with my ideas of gender and made myself believe that my gender struggles were related to my autism. But after some thinking, I still feel that I'm non-binary. It's been really hard a bit too. Lately, people have been calling me a man, which I don't like. I am AFAB. But I don't really like people calling me a woman either. But my mom said people were calling me this because of my hair, and that I needed a more "feminine" haircut. I didn't really want a haircut, but got one anyways. I don't know if my hair was considered "too masculine" before. All I want is to look androgynous and people call me by my name.

    The next conflict was that I made an Instagram account with the name I like (Niko), and my siblings started to laugh at me for me calling myself Niko, saying it's a "boy's name" when it's a unisex name. It took a long time to find this name, and went with it. I don't like people criticizing my decision. So I didn't use the Instagram in the end mainly due to high levels of social anxiety since my siblings knew about it.

    I also am conflicted with many people saying that non-binary genders don't exist and it's just male or female and it has gotten to me quite a bit, especially with all the news about transgender issues in the States, even though I'm from Canada. I just don't want people judging me for being androgyne. I feel like this is whom I am, and it wasn't my choice to be like this. I just have been so conflicted.

    Anyways, I feel happy to be back, and will be posting on here more soon :slight_smile: