Greetings. I last on here in May of 2016. I decided to come back. My main struggle was dealing with my new diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder (ASD) - level 1 and a learning disability/difficulty. It conflicted a bit with my ideas of gender and made myself believe that my gender struggles were related to my autism. But after some thinking, I still feel that I'm non-binary. It's been really hard a bit too. Lately, people have been calling me a man, which I don't like. I am AFAB. But I don't really like people calling me a woman either. But my mom said people were calling me this because of my hair, and that I needed a more "feminine" haircut. I didn't really want a haircut, but got one anyways. I don't know if my hair was considered "too masculine" before. All I want is to look androgynous and people call me by my name. The next conflict was that I made an Instagram account with the name I like (Niko), and my siblings started to laugh at me for me calling myself Niko, saying it's a "boy's name" when it's a unisex name. It took a long time to find this name, and went with it. I don't like people criticizing my decision. So I didn't use the Instagram in the end mainly due to high levels of social anxiety since my siblings knew about it. I also am conflicted with many people saying that non-binary genders don't exist and it's just male or female and it has gotten to me quite a bit, especially with all the news about transgender issues in the States, even though I'm from Canada. I just don't want people judging me for being androgyne. I feel like this is whom I am, and it wasn't my choice to be like this. I just have been so conflicted. Anyways, I feel happy to be back, and will be posting on here more soon