I've fully accepted I'm trans. And that I want to transition. That's not the problem. In fact, I've figured out a few more things about myself, in that my self worth and confidence are at an all time low. Now, this doesn't mean I shy away from presenting how I want to but it does mean I've lost faith in how I come across on work and my presence. On paper, I read as successful but I am so so so hollow at the moment. And stuck in what the fuck I am doing with my life. I look at job vacancies online and I couldn't give two hoots about any of them. I earn well and you'd think I'd find something appealing in the roles I'm looking at. But it's soul crushing to be so B O R E D by everything. And I have very little outside of work to fill my time with. I do believe that I have to leave the country and push myself out of my comfort zone. Because this country has nothing interesting to offer me anymore. But, the only thing I look forward to is finally being the man I feel I should be. I feel I'll be treated differently too but in a way that I need to be.
