This is not a request for advice or help. I just want to share something. and if you want to comment feel free. I am only at the very beginning stages of looking into what could be done for me medically, have just bought my first binder and such. But I think the big thing for me has been that I have allowed myself the freedom to be. What I want to be: mentally at least. I am no longer fighting my mind. And it feels like bliss. I am so overcome by feelings of complete peace this week. My body is not as I am. But my mind feels free to revision myself in ways I refused to before. Nothing seems to matter. Nothing is bugging me. nothing is snagging me. I feel centred and WHOLE. Dear God I want this feeling to stay!
(-: so hard to put into words...I just feel warm inside....like I am really me now...like I am come home... I spent time yesterday looking at some kiddy pix of me at the seaside ...I was just five and so innocent..and so terribly boyish!!! But most obviously I can remember now that feeling of happiness...the warmth and contentedness inside that little boy... because its so obvious now that that's what I was...and its what I need to reach back to in order to be happy. lol...I am obviously having a moment... thank you all for reading
