Keep your fingers crossed. I chose myself a masculine name. Not some gender neutral name. A male name. F*** that. I'm gonna say it and rocket out of this closet. That I am a man. I wanted to buy some skirts and make myself into a girl, but I can't. I just can't. I'm sure I feel like a guy. I won't hesitate saying that. It's such a fact. And it's been so long already. So many years that I didn't understand that yet I knew. They told me... gender fluid. They told me: girl. F*** that. Everyone will know. I'm going to live as a dude. I'm not going to lose this lifetime waiting and struggling with myself. ---------- Post added 18th Nov 2016 at 05:03 PM ---------- I just can't stand being read as a woman any longer. I might like those skirts, and I might like the feminine look, but I can't take it any longer. Only when I figured I feel like a dude, I started to be fascinated with women's clothing. It was the final attempt. I knew I'm losing it. I do know it.
Hey emerry, You just have to be who you are. It's pretty sad that so much of the world differentiates because of gender. Whether it's that assigned at birth or who someone 'is', which may be different. What does it really matter? People are people. I've been around the world in my lifetime and I will take people at face value first and foremost. That value has nothing to do with gender or race or sexual orientation. But maybe that is just me. I dunno. More power to you!
Being in the closet is so painful and frustrating. Finally coming out can be scary, but so necessary. You'll finally get to live as a guy, and that is amazing. I've got my fingers crossed for you. Good luck. I really hope it goes well.
Thank you guys I told my mom. I cried and cried and cried for like 2 hours on her lap and shaked like in fever until I finally spitted it out. I must have looked very miserable. She shouts at me a lot so I was so afraid. But it was all good. It turns out she met much more LGBT+ people than expected. Trans people too. And she asked a lot. I was at first reluctant to outwardly say I am a guy because it feels like I went nuts. But she asked a lot of questions and she pushed it out of me as well that I'm bi. And mom's like... be gay and transition if that makes you happy. She saw that I've been struggling for a couple of years already. She's not hype that I want to be a girl and look like a guy, but accepting of that. ---------- Post added 19th Nov 2016 at 02:56 AM ---------- My mom is agender by the way, lol.
Congratulations, emerry! I'm so happy that your Mom was accepting and that you can be open and honest with her about this.
Congrats! I'm happy that you finally found yourself and that your mom took it so well. I hope that things will go well for you and that you 'll be able to transition soon. ( did your mom come out as agender when you told her or what?)
Thank you all *hugs* She told Dad, even though I asked her not to, but whatever, at least it's done. Dad turned out okey too, and I don't really demand anything from him, but it was so nice of him, he said something like... guys with painted nails look good, or something, because I was showing off my newly done nail polish, and I had no idea Mom told him. They are both still a bit panicked though. I imagine they must be shocked. They told me it's not possible to tell easily. Yeah.
Also, Mom and Dad are willing to help how they can and it's such a relief. Because they asked if that's what I'm so worried about for such a long time, and if I'm fine in my body, and I wrote them a really long text msg explaining stuff, and... it looks like I'm switching unis again, but whatever, to somewhere where guys wouldn't be reluctant to talk to me just because I'm a girl *sigh* They are more supportive than I could have imagined. And dad... told me that if I wanted to talk with him about something... I understood that like dad and son... about something I don't want to talk about to mom. It's so nice of him. I didn't really expect it. There was lots and lots of crying, all of us. I suspect though... That if I hadn't have it so thought-through and I wasn't so confident in how I feel about what, it could have gone much, much worse. And if not for all the quarrels we had before.
... and I told one of my best friends too He's fine with that, I guess. He also told me he's bi or gay. OMG. He said he's happy I opened up, because I seemed kinda withdrawn. Whatever it means, and I don't know if he's not shocked though... Each coming out is easier, I can tell you.
Hey Emerry, that's great! Sounds like you are going to be in a much better place being able to be open and just yourself with your parents and one of your best friends. He probably noticed that you've been more withdrawn lately as you've been worrying over this. I'm sure he understands, though. He may be a bit surprised, but I doubt he's shocked at your Coning Out to him. And now the two of you can talk freely. If he Came Out to you as Bi or Gay, it sounds like he might want to talk to you, as well, while he is figuring himself out.
Thank you both It's true, it's so much much better, I just feel lighter. Yeah. It's good to have someone to talk to about this stuff. That may be.
Thanks, Rick. I told my therapist, and I told another friend too. With the therapist, it's been hard, a lot of misunderstanding, but we're addressing my gender issues, so it's not too pleasant, but it went okey too, I think. I have to clear up misunderstandings. But with the friend it's been perfectly okey, and she's super supportive I've got a list of friends I want to tell, ha ha. Those I talk to most. I think I'll get myself some very dudely clothes soon, I can even go shopping with someone, as I'm out and proud right now. I can't wait.
