I didn't write for a long time, did I? I came out to pretty much everyone important. I can talk gender stuff IRL. I'm not sure what it all means, and what I'm gonna do. But I suspect that deep down I already know my truth. Everyone knows their truth deep inside but not everyone is bave enough to face it and fight for it. I know my truth. I had a dream. It was such a vivid dream. I had an armour and a sword, I was waiting for someone to come. I thought to myself that I know who I am. I am a woman, and I feel like a man, but do I have to give everything up, so many things that matter to me, because I was born like this? I don't want to act the part. I don't want to be a man. I am a man, and I know I will not escape it, even if I want to. I won't escape being a woman either. The truth is. I don't want to do anything about it. I like myself. I don't think there is anything wrong with me. I don't need to become. If someone can't see that I already am a man, what is the point of proving it to them? If they don't accept the existance of trangender individuals, if their mind is not open? Pretending to be a cis either way means hiding who I am. That is my opinion and I'm not gonna change it. The whole crux is in saying it out loud. I don't want to act the part. I refuse to play this game. Clothes are just fabric, body is just flesh and bone, names are just words. If someone wants to be fooled that I am someone different, let it be, there is no dishonesty on my part, I'm giving it to them straightforward who and what I am. If they want to see a lesbian, let it be. If they want to see a fag hag, let it be. If they want to see a femme, let it be. If they want to see a confused girl, let it be. If they want to see someone not trans enough, let it be. I am a guy in mind and girl in body, and that is my truth. I am a man in my soul, but I was raised as a girl. I don't want to hide any part of it. I don't want to live in the shadows any longer. Am I problematic and opening a can of worms? Yes I am. Let it be that way.
Hi Michael, thank you for these beautiful words. I can relate to many of them and they make me feel stronger and better. They make me want to come out and tell everybody about who I am. Thanks man!
I so admire your bravery and depth on such a personal topic. Thank you for sharing. Indeed, saying it out loud has made all the difference for me as well. Stay strong! Are your parents supportive?
