hey so first of all I'd like to apologize for any further mistakes or if my sentences make no sense but yeah. I've been question my gender A LOT and yeah i don't know really; like i know im not cisgender but after i cant figure it out I've passed from bigender to genderfluid to transgender to transmasculine and now i'm like maybe i'm nonbinary? and well i suck at explaining how i feel but if anyone could help me figure it?
well its actually pretty hard to explain because i do not experience much dysphoria like yes i do cry about my body and i want to be on testosterone but i don't know if i really want bottom surgery but i kinda want top and well i have mostly dysphoria in public places when i have to talk or if people call me by she/her or girl. and yeah i don't know i suck at explaining again i suck at explaining my feelings... but i don't know i kinda feel like boy or neither? would you want a bigger explanation?
OP you phrased it so well. All i can articulate is that i have never felt like i was 'one of the girls' but beyond that, i can't put words to anything. I am comfortable with my body so i'm not trans. Its all on the inside, that's it. I've always felt like there was a metaphorical wall between me and pretty much every other girl i went to school with growing up. And with all these labels its confusing. I mean what does it even mean to feel like a girl or a boy or somewhere in-between?
Gender isn't really a "feeling" of being something, but the ''feeling'' of not being. So cis girls don't ''feel'' like a girl since her female body is right, but a trans boy would ''feel'' that his female body is wrong. It's more about the harmony/discord of the body than the ''feeling''. Although it's not to be confused with hating it sometimes (such as a girl on her period). If you could have any sex parts you wanted, what would you choose?
