I'm not overly tom-boyish. Not stereotypically "dyke-ish." I am asexual, I think maybe someday that might change when I myself am finished maturing and what not, but other than that I am pansexual. If you can be both that is... But something I've always toyed around with is how much I wanted to be a guy. Everything I want to do with my life musically and such I've wanted to do AS A GUY. All of my idols are men. I feel less.. strong? as a girl. I don't know how to explain it. I don't know if I really want to be male, or if I just envy men. My sexual orientation I am certain of, but when I ask myself if I'm happy being a girl.. I'm not. I wish I'd been born a straight male.
Well, I won't label you but if you wish to identify as a man, you are a man. Your gender expression is your right and you don't need a penis to be male (though believe me, it would certainly be a nice perk). If you're not happy being a woman, then you have the power to change it. You're a man if that's how you see yourself. Change your gender on the EC sidebar, assume the identity you know makes you happy. I'll be posting this to every trans* thread, I swear to god, but I'm going to leave you with a quote by my new favorite blogger, Natalie Reed. "When we start looking for approval of our feelings, and assurances that they’re real and that they count, beyond the subjective certainty and realness of experiencing those feelings, we’re lost. Well and truly lost, looking for a path we simply can’t find. And when you’ve made doing what you need to do in order to be happy conditional on that approval and assurance, we’ve resigned ourselves to unhappiness. A self, an identity, a gender… these aren’t really fixed, concrete facts in the world. These are means. Processes by which we understand ourselves and our relationship to things, and articulate and express them. You’re never going to get any certainty beyond the certainty you yourself assert, or any assurance beyond the sense of I am. This is who I am. This is what I am experiencing. This is what I want. This is what I need to do." - Natalie Reed