Two obstacles out of the way: I finally graduated college (yay)... and I managed to come out to my first friend. I figured he would be supportive, but was actually shocked by how well it went. He turned out to be close to other trans people so what I was saying all made sense to him. He even mentioned some of our other friends are supportive of trans people too. So I feel less... isolated I guess. But that leaves me with the question of what to do now. I originally had plans to get far from my family, live abroad, etc and spend some time with myself, and I still want to do those things. But I really have a fear of aging and it makes me not want to waste time I won't get back. Sometimes I see pictures of myself and they still seem young and androgynous, other times I see male lines everywhere that are probably half in my head, and I'm afraid of waiting too much longer to start hormones if that's where I'm headed. What I really need first though is to confirm where my feelings are coming from so I don't feel like I'm jumping into it. So... how do I try cross-dressing more seriously without waiting to move away? I have makeup but no skirts or anything of my own because I wouldn't be able to hide them very well and have no intention of telling the people I live with. My friend suggested drag... but I'm not sure how I feel about that. I'm not sure I'd like the attention, and I want to look like a girl, not a drag queen. I'm open to it though if the opportunity comes up... What do others think? Another option is to ask one of my exes to dress me up. :lol: I have reason to believe she'd do it, but she said I just wanted to be special when I told her I had identity issues so she's one of the people I don't think it would really be pleasant to come out to. I guess I could start telling more people now, but then I'm afraid of having to take it back if I deal with the fallout and then find out I don't want to transition afterall. :dry: