Any idea what this gender identity is please?

I know, nobody can decide my gender identity for me. Thing is, I know exactly what my gender identity is and how I feel my gender is, it's just finding the label for it, I don't know what it's called! So I was wondering if anyone could point me to any terms for me to explore? It's hard to describe, argh, let's see...

I feel like a boy and a girl, and the two have merged, so I feel like a boygirl. I originally thought bigender, but I don't feel like a boy and a girl, I feel like the two are the same thing for me (but I don't feel agendered, I definitely feel like a boy and a girl). I don't feel 50% girl and 50% boy. If I dress feminine, I feel like a feminine boygirl, rather than more of a girl. I don't know if pronouns or gender presentation matter, but I'm indifferent on pronouns, I'm not strongly attached to any so I don't mind what people call me, but I feel a little more attached to people using she about 60% of the time and he about 40% of the time, and I feel most comfortable presenting myself sort of androgynously - a cross between "chic masculine" woman and "pretty boy". I feel dysphoria about my 34D chest but no dysphoria about anything else.
But with all of this going on (ugh, I'm really sorry for being complicated), I feel like a "womanly man", but I'm definitely not cis.

Labels are super comforting (I feel a little bit ashamed to admit that! but when I found "pansexual" there was this rush of relief that I could identify with something) and I want to kind of find one that sort of fits, but also describing myself as a "boygirl" could be a little odd. :lol:

Thanks for any input given.