I'm not a homophobic person but I feel really disgusted at myself because I'm gay. Whenever I feel myself being attracted to another guy, I immediately stop myself and feel so ashamed afterwards and put myself down for it. It makes me feel like crap all the time. I'm not out to anybody because all my family and friends are homophobic. How do I get over this? :help:
It's not unusual to feel like that, dude. But please remember that being gay is just HUMAN, every bit as normal as being straight. I know I can't convince you of that, but it's true. And as you grow, you'll learn to love that part of yourself.
You might start by asking yourself why you feel disgusted with the goal of determining the chain of reasoning that is going into the feelings. Once you do that you can attack that line of reasoning, either by seeing it to be irrational or by developing counter arguments to overcome it. You need to determine the size and shape of the elephant before you can defeat it. Hope this helps, Todd
I'll say that I personally struggle with having anti-gay feelings towards myself. I'm starting to more overall accept myself. As for your friends/family I shall say this, and please don't take this the wrong way; wait two more years and leave them all behind. People are slow to change and build acceptance/tolerance, and if it were me in your shoes, I'd go off the grid. Or alternatively, find a family member that you could live with that isn't homophobic.
