I'm a 22 year old male always liked women since I was in kindergarten as far as I can Remember but now here is the problem. When I was 7 years old and I went on vacation to Dominican Republic me and my male cousin used to watch porn and one day we started kissing and stuff and copying what we where seeing on tv. And that was something I Never told anyone untill now. I confessed to my another cousin of mine this secret and he said the same thing happened to him with the cousin from Dominican Republic. Then We approached are cousin from Dominican Republic to see if he was gay and he said no . That once when he was younger another cousin of our made him suck his dick when he was sick and that cousin was 15 years old . And after all these years i'm asking myself what the fuck and I gay for doing this thing and its mind fucking me. I don't have have an attraction for males in any way but i'm wondering now am i gay and i once had a gay person ask if im gay once i don't know and P.s. i have a uncle that might be gay its a rumor but yeah i'm sorry for all the cousin talk but it you understand me please help me i'm mind fucked right now
Messing around in with a guy in 1st or 2nd grade isn't uncommon, and doesn't mean you're gay, nor would it make you gay. So the important question is, when you watch porn / wander around / go to the beach or pool, where do your eyes go? Toward guys or girls? When you masturbate (without porn), who do you think about? Guys or girls?
I agree with chip, this does not make you gay. Nothing can. However what this does show is that you probably aren't 100% straight (few people are). Also remember that sexuality is not a binary construct but a spectrum, Most people fall near an end but few fall at an end. You mentioned that you find girls attractive, is it in a sexual way or more of an admiration? Same with men do you find them attractive, and if so is it in a sexual way, or more of an admiration? If you can honestly answer these questions it may help you figure out where you fall on the spectrum, however it is not always easy to answer these questions honestly, sometimes it will take a while to figure out the true answer.
I did the same thing at that time. You're just experimenting. It's nothing bad. As for me. I have always had attractions to men, experimentation or not. You're most likely straight as a pole.