Why everytime I think I'm about to lose my virginity something happen?

Please don't judge me!

I have met a few nice looking guys during the last year but I never get to bang with any of them. I'm not really sure what is the reason. Can anybody tell me?

The first one gave me a fake # number. We never got in touch again after that night. He seemed interested but that day I just wasn't ready. We met on the street when passing by and looked at each other. Dude was just my type Grrrrrr! He was actually the reason why I joined the gym lately. I saw him later that summer but he kinda ignored me. This summer I saw him again but he did the same thing or at least didn't say hi to me. It's so frustrating. Can you guys believe he looks even hotter now? What a shame... I met a second guy this summer. He came to me while walking on the street too. He wanted to have sex with me but I'm not that crazy. Before doing anything I feel like I need to take a shower or something. Besides a very short kiss we didn't do anything that night. He gave me his phone number and we're like friends now because I honestly lost interest later on (dude stopped going to the gym because he doesn't look as good as he looked that night). Anyway, I got a job in a very well-known gay neighborhood here in New York. There are so many hot men over there. However, I feel like most of them are not attracted to me which is weird because I'm a handsome guy. I just need a hot body to look like a porn star. No kidding. In reality, I have always had a lot of guys looking at me but most have not been my type or at least I felt like I wasn't ready in the past. I'm very very selective and worry about everything. I like well built masculine men. They have to be as tall as me or taller. Clean, with nice teeth and nice looking face. I don't like too average looking guys to be honest.

 

Ok, I'm not done yet!

Anyway, I met a third guy. He's actually an exotic bartender at a club. Dude was very very nice looking and masculine. He had a hot body, nice tattoos, a nice face, nice lips, a nice hairy chest and facial hair, a nice personality, etc. I met him on the street too. I was at a newstand and he gave me a look I couldn't ignore. He was coming from work and had a few drinks according to him but didn't seem "too drunk" to me really. We ended up going to a dark place and did a nice long kissing session. The guy also did some oral to me but we had to stop because we were next to a high way and didn't want to get arrest or something. Anyway, he gave me his phone number and told me he wanted me to teach me a lot of stuff. But I have such a bad luck. That week I lost my phone and couldn't get in touch with him two weeks later. I called him later and started texting. He told me to keep in touch and that he was always around. But we never met. We never did :icon_sad: I wasn't very confident for some reason. He actually wanted me to meet him and have a drink where he works at but I didn't want to go there to be honest. I made an excuse. Not sure if he thought I was weird or what but he never responded to my text messages anymore. :tears::tears::tears: I really liked him and thought he was the one. He was just my type! He was so handsome and seemed clean and healthy besides having a nice personality :***: But I'll see him some day. I know I will.

Anyway, after that I have talked to other guys but only like three of them have called my attention and from these three only one seem "the one" or at least I think he looks descent enough to have my first gay sexual experience. But I'm starting to think he lost interest or something. He gave his phone number last Sunday and told me to call him. I thought I was going to lose my virginity that night lol. I met him that day. He was at the gym and I was passing by. Dude was looking at me and I couldn't resist that taking in consideration how handsome he was. He's 9 years older than me but doesn't look it. I sent him 4 text messages on Sunday and he only responded to two of them and in one he said he was grabbing a bite to eat with a friend. I asked what was he into and then I told him that I didn't have too much experience. He didn't replied me back. I called him twice yesterday and he wasn't available. I called him today but he told me he was at work. I asked if I could call him later and he said yes but I don't really know what to do. I don't know why is losing interest. Do you guys know? I really like him.

---------- Post added 24th Sep 2013 at 05:06 PM ----------

I'm looking for sex, safe sex of course, and someone I really really like...

I forgot to say that I actually met another guy last friday. He looked very handsome to me at first but I lost interest after seeing some pictures of him in the internet. See how weird I am? I don't know, maybe he's not photogenic. There's actually a picture of him in swimsuit that I found disgusting ewww. He invited me to his apartment the day I met him but I'm not that crazy. I stopped texting him. The man I men on Sunday looks wayyy better and seemed cleaner and more mature. That's a better type.

 

???

 

I don't want to regret in the future.

---------- Post added 26th Sep 2013 at 11:46 AM ----------

Yes, I do have an accent.