I feel empty. I don't know why I feel empty. I spend most of my time and effort trying to make myself look impressive. I don't know what to do to make myself feel any better. I obsess over my job (work it IT) and I feel like I've reached my peak because I'm too stupid to advance my career. I feel empty, like I don't really have anything special to make me happy. My parents are super nagative which makes me even more negative. Sometimes I think making more money and or meeting new people would make me happy. I feel like I'm turning into some dull asshole loaner. I don't know what to do to fix it. Guess this turned into more of a rant haha. Anyone ever go through something similar as a teenager?
I still feel that way at times, but the thing is, I think I was doing so bad because I was heading in the wrong direction. Now I'm the same age as you, and I think for us it could just be part of maturing. However, maybe you need to do something new? For the couple of weeks, I have been making YouTube videos. They aren't very good yet, I'm not going to lie to you. But I started making them spur of the moment, and even though I've just started, I feel better than I have in years. I realize that I wasn't taking to do things that actually fulfilled me. Just by taking the time to make something that I enjoy making, my mood has been improving dramatically. Not only that, but giving advice to people on here gave me a purpose, even if it's a small one. Even though I'm still pretty lost on what I specifically want to do, I know I want it to involve other people so that I can make them happy. Maybe you need to just ignore your parents and find your purpose. Who knows, it could be right next to you right now.
I have this fear that I will never "make it" in life, so I don't spend a whole lot of time looking for my purpose. I'm too busy obsessing about how to advance my career and image. I don't even know where to start looking for something that fulfills me.
