I worry about having too many phobias. There was a time when I was a substance abuser and in the closet. Exposing myself was one of my issues. Along with going to midnight movies, hanging out all night, and general homophobia. I wanted to have a gay life but I didn't know how to do it. Other than fit any model that others would present. I always have a phobia that I am taking too many risks with my sexuality issue, then I go to any extreme to show myself as a deceptive character. I am still looking for that fine line that I know not to cross. I am always worried that I will wind up just another statistic of a person who couldn't cope with his feelings and emotions.
