During the summer i kind of had a fling with one of my best friends. I told her that i had feelings towards her and she was fine with it we kissed and it was great. One night i ended up fingering her and she loved it lol. In general she is a really flirty person that's who she is and i like that about her. Then she texts me saying she is straight and wants to be just friends and she tells me how much she cares for me. But like a week later we start to flirt again this is while she was on vacation and when she gets back we kiss and i finger her AGAIN! Then she tells me she is straight and doesn't feel anything towards me like a month ago. She told me she needed space so i gave it to her she told me she couldn't be around me because i smoke pot. She doesn't want to speak to me and it is so hard for me because she is one of my best friends. Like i want to be friends with her, just friends. I feel like she really liked me she said she really considered like going out with me. but i feel like she couldn't handle it and she is just running away from it now. I want to move on and forget it ever happened. i guess i need her as a friend more than she needs me:icon_sad:
