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I'm Confused

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by ItsChris, Nov 20, 2013.

  1. ItsChris

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    Hi. My name is Chris. All my life i thought i was straight, but now i have this odd feeling that i was lying to myself, and that i may be gay, or bi. When it comes to attraction, i feel attracted to guys, but also girls. I can understand and see the prettiness of a girl and all that, but when i'm "playing solo" i imagine guys. I imagine 2 guys but watch porn with a guy and girl. I for some reason don't really look at the girl, but the dick. I think to myself am i straight and just weird, or gay? I have an odd pituitary, so i didn't really get puberty. I used androgel when i was 20, and in a way i got my puberty. pimples, hornless, hair in private areas, and that stuff. When it happened, every girl i looked at, i had wild fantasies about them. however i feel like after i stopped using it, the attraction wore off, and i was just going off what i thought was right. i hate the female private area. i kinda like the boobs and the big butts, but i feel sometimes i was just brainwashed to like it. My brother, he practically sweats testosterone. He looks at all the girls butts, and he blows me off to go have sex with a chick. I just feel like i don't want that. I have heard that "the proof is in the porn" so i am now curious. I have been "in love" with 2 girls, and each time it wasn't the body or wanting to have sex, i liked their minds. maybe it was because i'm sensitive and shy that having a girl think i'm nice and be friends with me made me like them. I'm very confused. i like everything about a guys parts. how handsome they are, the "below parts" and so on. I even somewhat have a fan crush on Patrick stump. I'm just wondering...am i gay or bi because of it?
     
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    Well, sorry for double post but i thought i would add more info. the good looks of a guy and all that i like, but after finding real gay porn i thought to myself maybe i was in faze, or if i were gay, but kept myself from saying i was. i may be in denial, but all i know is that the felling is there for guys and a little for women alike, so im confused even more. i guess for some reason im just looking for self gratification, and an answer that i my find through help. so please i need to advice or help.
     
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    When you're out and about in public, who is it that catches your eye most of the time? Guys or girls? When you masturbate just using your imagination, is it guys or girls who are in it? That's a small starting point.
     
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    I usually look at nobody at all, sometimes guys, and i fantasize about men mostly. i'm into the dirty, forced stuff...2 guys for sure 60% of the time.
     
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    Which sex is more appealing to you romantically? Could you see yourself kissing, holding hands, cuddling, etc... with a guy? Or does a girl fit that role better for you? So far it sounds like you're leaning more towards guys from what's been said.
     
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    well, i want to be romantic with a girl, i guess even though the attraction to guys is there, i just cant picture that stuff with a guy.
     
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    I think i am kinda getting what i'm like, to say it in short, i feel sexually attracted to guys, but romantically, its girls. I fell like that mostly describes it. and i like boobs, i like pretty girls faces, so is that bi? or what? :confused:
     
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    Don't be afraid. Some people are confused, and some aren't. It takes time :slight_smile:. And coincidentally, I'm super in love with a straight guy named Chris :slight_smile:
     
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    Thank you. I'm still confused, but i will try my hardest to understand.
     
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    No problem. And what's your last name? lol. I'm not making you give it
     
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    Lol no prob, i'll tell you. Its Coleman. I got all kinds of "Gary Coleman's nephew" jokes in school.
     
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    Oh. Ok. If your last name would be Bordelon I would totally die.
     
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    lol, yeah that would be freaky.
     
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    So, if i may ask, am i totally not gay/bi if i end up having sex with a guy and its repulsive, or what?
     
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    It depends. Maybe you're just bi. I suck at giving advice. I'm sorry
     
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    Its fine, thanks anyway. I just have this feeling that gets me aroused. I like big dicks(sorry, language) I like big boobs and i love handsome/pretty faces. I find sex with a woman more repulsive than a man, and i feel like a bottom type guy, who gets cuddled and i feel a little feminine sometimes cause i'm submissive, sensitive, and shy. I just want a straight answer but i'm so unsure whats going on with me.