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Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by jvn95, Feb 3, 2014.

  1. jvn95

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    Me and my boyfriend just broke up last night.

    He had been ignoring me out of the blue for the three days. He said he didn't want to talk about it. So I gave him some space.

    He invited me over, he lives with another one our friends.

    He flat out ignored me the entire time. And when I asked why, he said something about stuff going on with his family. Which made no sense to treat me that way.

    I left.

    He ignored me the next day too. I finally just asked, Do you love me anymore?

    He said yes and said he was going through a rough spot.

    But that didn't make sense to ignore me personally.

    I messaged our friend to see what the heck is going on. She told it might be better to just break up, and that she said he told her that he feels like he has to try really hard to make me happy.

    I messaged him again, with no reply.

    I messaged her again, I was crumbling.

    She told me that he didn't me to know, but it was wrong to keep it from me, that he had started to hand pictures up in his room of his ex. And that he wanted to go back to him.

    I messaged him again.

    She told he blocked my number.

    I left a voicemail begging for him to just talk to me.

    I messaged her what I had to say to him. I still don't know what's really going on..

    I'm blocked for basically no reason..

    I was used. I was a bandaide for someone else's broken heart.

    I feel so worthless right now, I have gotten no sleep, throwing up all night, and I called into work.

    My heart won't stop beating so hard.

    All I can think about is all the "I love you"s he told me, all the hugging and the kissing and how it's all gone, and that he basically just erasing me. And I just want an explaination from him.

    I feel like a piece of garbage
    Live and learn I guess.
     
  2. SongshiQuan

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    I'm sorry jvn95...no one deserves to be treated that way. (*hug*) You're still young and you've got your whole life ahead of you. We're all beautiful in our own way. Someone will see the beauty in you and love you just for being the person you are. Keep your head up, often people who do this to others have their own problems there's nothing wrong with you. Let the hurt out now it'll help the healing. I hope you feel better soon and you'll find someone who you truly deserve and who deserves you.
     
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    speaking as one bandaid to another, i have been on both sides of this. i was a rebound and once i realised it wasn't me i could move on..as for the other side i really did think i was over my ex and did feel i loved my new gf. it hurts either way but you can get past this.
     
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    Time heals all. I've been used like you have before myself. It does hurt. Wish you the best.
     
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    I'm so sorry that this happened to you. No matter what was going on in his mind, there's no excuse for how you were treated. A lot of us have been in similar positions before, so you're not alone. It might take some time, but you'll be able to move past this.

    (*hug*)
     
  6. dano218

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    I am so sorry for how he is treated you. It says everything about him and nothing about you. He deserves no attention or respect and if this is how is he treating you I doubt he ever truly loved you. I am not saying that to be mean but you deserve better and true love in your life.
     
  7. jvn95

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    I am so angry now.

    I contacted him through other means to bypass that block, I let him know how I feel.

    User.

    I just want to cry and lay in bed
     
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    Aaw, I'm so sorry you have to go through this :icon_sad: (*hug*)

    I can relate though, because I myself have been used. More than once. By more than one person. I'm starting to think I'm the one with the problem

    But in your case, your (ex) boyfriend is the one with the problem. Like you said in your last post: User. You did nothing wrong, and you certainly didn't deserve to be treated like shit. He doesn't deserve someone as loving and caring as you. In all honesty, you're better off without someone so heartless in your life. It hurts now, but time will heal, and you will meet someone who will treat you with respect, and love you lots (and actually mean it when they say they love you)

    (*hug*)
     
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    What an asshole. Don't worry I'm sure you can do better than this guy.
     
  10. jvn95

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    He is with his ex.

    Who is like 45, and married, and has a boyfriend, and my ex.

    I'm still sad, don't get me wrong, but LOL

    This guy has some problems.

    Geez, :/ I has dumped for THAT? You MUST have some mental issues.
     
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    He obviously doesn't deserve you, and i'm sure eventually u'll find someone that will share mutual love.
    Think about it like this - its good u caught that early, so now this will make u stronger, and ready for the next more stable relationship :slight_smile:

    EDIT: omg I forgot hugs (*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)
     
  12. jvn95

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    Thanks everyone for the support. I really need/needed it.