Wanting To Die

Oceanic, you must contact the authorities. I am absolutely sure there are offices or helplines that can change your life for better.
If you give us or the admins an aproximate area where you live, we can look up some contact for you.

 

I have contacted somone in the UK who works with the people who need help just like you. I will get back to you as soon as I hear from him.

 

If he's making real, serious death threats, it would be justified for you to call the cops.

*hugs* this sounds bad...

 

Death threats? Dear god...call the authorities...please. (*hug*)

 

Oceanic,

you should try barnodos, it's a children's charity. There's the lesbian and gay helpline you should ring them. Where are you staying? Have you been reported as missing by your parents? Are you going to school now?

 

Hmmmm, so were these death threats actually serious? Sorry, can't tell from your post whether or not they were.

Perhaps the best thing to do at this point would be to talk to your dad and tell him you thought about it and you don't really think you're gay. That'll get him off your back and when you're 18, you can leave and do what you want... I don't know your entire story though, so maybe that wouldn't work for you.

But suicide is not the answer. Life can be hard, very hard, even much harder. But it also tends to get better for most people. It's only been a few days, bro, give yourself a chance. I know you feel like it's the end of the world forever, but really, your undeveloped frontal lobe is tricking you. There's life after hurt. Take it from someone who's had bricks fall on her for a good decade. I'm still here and yet they keep falling.

 

Ok, so you should call 911 and get the heck out of there before he can do something to you... Unless you manage to defuse (sp?) the situation somehow.

 

My friend has made a typo, the organization is

Barnardo's - support a child in crisis this year

Will you call? Or do you want us to worry for ever? We can't help you here, but they can.

 

Forget about proving your mom right, your safety is more important. In terms of lying, do you think he'd buy it if you said you really believed you were gay, but then some serious praying or soul-searching or whatever, and you realized it was the influence of the media/the devil/the monster under your bed that was giving you these sinful thoughts, and that you really weren't trying to lie but were simply mistaken?

Basically, you need to get them off your back with as little damage done as possible, no matter what the means. It doesn't seem like the situation is salvageable anyway, so lying to them should really be the least of your concerns.

Now, I'm not in your skin, I don't know your parents, I'm just working with what you're telling us. Definitely use your common sense when applying any advice people are giving you here.

 

Ok first of all, suicide is not an option.

The only real options are either get help from a local organization or even better local authorities, or temporarily go back in the closet for your own safety.

I would definitely recommend getting help from someone who can protect you. Threatening the life of any, especially their own child, is a very serious matter not to be brushed off. Perhaps there is a safe-house or something you can go to if the authorities are not being responsive?

 

That's good. Study hard to have a chance to leave home in several years if the situation is not better.

 

That's the good thing about homophobic parents. They so don't want to have a gay kid that it's often pretty easy to convince them that you were led astray by friends/society/Satan and are really not gay at all lol... Glad you're feeling a bit better, aren't you happy you didn't act on your impulse?

 

Tell the police about your situation. Seriously