I was sitting around the other day and I realized I have never kissed a guy before. When I was still in denial I was fine with it but now that I have accepted myself I want to know what it is like and I am kinda sad I haven't. I have kissed girls and it is nice, I like it. But for some reason I feel like kissing a guy would be so much better. Maybe I am putting it on a pedestal? Being "non-straight" in high school sucks, well at least from the looking for guys perspective. There are plenty of girls but at the same time I want to try something new. Maybe I AM putting it on a pedestal. I kinda just rambling now...
AH you're not the only person to over-think how good it will be...not by a long shot Hell, I've spent the last 3 months thinking how great it would be to do sexy things to a guy, and now one actually appears interested in me, I find I'm more interested in a girl! Brains are stupid sometimes
I think about it too much to, although most people who have been kissed point out the first time isn't usually great. That doesn't stop me from developing ridiculous expectations about it though.