Hi. I'm brand new here. I just have some questions I need answered. I'm mid age, have been in hetero relationships. But over the years I've looked at videos, films, (not sexual) , magazines about lgbt. I'm excited curious. This last relationship I grew to hate sex. I do it out of pressure or because he will be nicer if he gets sex. So, my sexual being is murdered. So, when I say I'm interested in homosexual relationship, I think of it in terms of emotional satisfaction. I'm not naive and I realize the same issues you deal with whether hetero or homosexual. Relationships are universal. Trust, intimacy, loyalty..all those things I want and it would be naive to think that everything would be better with a woman, but some things are better, right? Like communication¿ I like women. I like how they smell, they're beautiful. When I do try to imagine something during sexwith my partner I think of him getting another woman and her and his pleasure. It's like I don't exist sexually. Does that mean I'm a voyeur or lesbian or am I just asexual? I want to go out for coffee with a woman, cuddle, watch tv, cook with, just basically live with. The sex part is the part I'm unsure about. So, I guess I want to know if I'm just a closet lesbian who has self hate issues ? Help me
Hi Rachel! I figured out how to find your post. I'm not sure how much help I can be since I'm struggling with the same issues. If it were easy we wouldn't all be here, right? ((()))
