It seems that EC and places like this is the only place I feel really accepted. I am a male but because of difficulties, I cannot transition, as explained in an earlier post. It does kill me inside, but it's something I generally just don't talk about. Anyway, point of this post, I am pregnant and have a child. This makes it difficult for other LGBT people in my area to accept me. "How can you be pregnant and be a man?" "How can you not transition and still think of yourself as a man?" Yes, these are things that local GSAs, and LGBT groups have said. Like, they're supposed to be the ones that are understanding since my "straight cis-gendered" friends don't. Speaking of them, they have a hard time accepting me into their groups because "She thinks she's a he" and "She's dated women and trannies before!" My boyfriend basically accepts that I have a "past" but what he doesn't know is that if we weren't having this baby and if I didn't have to "appear" a certain way (relating back to an older post- maybe I should make a blog entry just for reference since I'm so confusing) I would have already transitioned which means he wouldn't have been dating me being that he is a straight man. I guess a woman who "acts" like a man is fine by him though. Whatever. IRL I feel so alone and like I'm working 24/7 to keep a secret. Online, where there are kind and accepting people (such as here), I can be myself and it's the only time I feel free! There's no out-right "What do" questions here other than, how to fit in? Or maybe How to feel like I fit in? It would help to know if any of you feel this way and how you cope.
I feel that way too here it's the only place I can be myself and out doors and at home I'm pretty much assumed to be some random straight girl and it sucks because I'm not straight and I can't be open about who I am or people would tell me I'm confused don't know what I want or that some guy will make me happy because I'm a femme lesbian . Your seems a lot harder than mine .