I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years now but cant help to feel like i should be in a relationship with a girl, i have never been with a girl but the urges are getting too much and i don't know what to do about the boyfriend :/ Arghh
i just don't want to hurt anyone, my mum has told me before that she would be extremely disappointed in me if i was a lesbian and i do love my partner very much it just doesn't feel right constantly thinking about my sexuality.
Because you've been with your boyfriend for so long, I think that you need to talk to him about this. As you can imagine, his reaction might not be the greatest, but he deserves to hear it from you first before you make any decisions. Who knows, he may be totally on-board, and totally understanding of your feelings. If you don't communicate everything to him, he could feel like you're hiding something from him, or not know why you broke up with him, which would probably lead to some mixed feelings. Like silverhalo said - maybe you could work out taking a break from him while you figure out your sexuality a bit more.
I think that because you are questioning, you should look into those feelings. After being with someone for such a long time, maybe you just need a break to figure things out. No harm in that better to know than wonder what if
I agree with all the above, besides you should understand that your sexuality is not about what your mom wants it to be but about who you really are. If you are attracted to women and want to be in a relationship with a woman, that feeling can only get stronger over the time when not acting on it, but you already know that. I understand that you don't want to hurt anyone in the process but being true and fair to yourself and your boyfriend is the best you can do right now. (*hug*)