I am not sure where to place this so I just figured I would place it here. I had the awkward moment when my mother asked me why gay/lesbian themed movies were popping up on our Netflix account. I looked at her and paused. I was stuck on what to say and then just said that a lot of them are actually pretty damn good. Anyways, why the heck would my mom ask me about this if I already came out to her last year? I feel for some reason that I am stuck. I am stuck because my mom still questions me which makes me question my own self. I admitted to her that I like a specific girl from work and thought she was starting to get it, but then she asked me about the movies. It literally sucks. I am stuck. I am stuck because only a few people know and I am too damn scared to tell a few more. I will tell myself at one time that I will mention it to one person then suddenly not. Or I will freak out if and when I think I have outed myself. For example, one person knows at work and well I am scared that they will start to tell others-they haven't said anything yet. I am just scared that they may accidently slip which will make me feel like my whole world is going to end. I hate it, I cannot tell anyone who I like. I luckily have a cousin who is understanding and who I actually go to for advice. She has told me that will still likely take my mom time to understand and she will likely only understand when I am with another girl. I just think life sucks at times. I don't know who I can trust. I have had one person ask me if I liked anyone (same person who asked me is the person I have a slight crush on) I just didn't say anything. It pisses people off, but I cannot just make up something so I just simply say it's a private matter than I don't like talking about. Anyways what in the heck should I do?????????