I see myself as horrible and fat but the thing is i actually am a healthy weight, yes i think a few more pounds loss would be better but i will either not eat very much at all or i will eat but then really hate myself. Is this anorexia?
Yes, unfortunately it sounds like it. I have it myself, so you're not alone. Actually, I've a support thread in the Physical Heath forum for those wih anorexia to give mutual support and advice. EDIT: I see that you have already posted on that thread. Anyways, hugs all around! (*hug*)
It sounds sort of like the beginnings of anorexia and if not that definitely a disordered mindset. I used to be anorexic but my mom sorta saved me Is there anybody you can trust to talk to about this?