my story

So I've been working on this for some time and I feel like finally sharing my story somewhere. While writing this I'm scared shitlessly for I don't know what reason... maybe the story itself, your reactions?

Once I was young and he was old
A story hardly ever told
So bad the truth I couldn't speak
My mind would only stray to seek
The peace a kid deserves to live
In savety, joy, no thought to give
On how it's never gonna be
A victim of a guy like he.

One morning blue and beautiful
A boy got up and went to school
The boy so young and innocent
For me the story badly went
With no idea that he was there
He knew the how, the when and where
At lunchtime I walked home alone
Hence paths unsave and he had known

Once I was young and he was old
A story hardly ever told
He stopped me there and cut my way
No one around to stop the guy
He took the chance and touched me quick
It hurt like hitting with a stick
I ran off crying, total mess
I've never felt such plain distress

At home no crying, silent boy
Though had I been another's toy
Ni single tone shall ever tell
This shame, I'd rather go to hell
The day grew older, after scholl
I hoped he wasn't there, I fool
But then I heard the noise and so
I learned how life would always go

Once I was young and he was old
A story hardly ever told
The week went on, the game the same
My ways did change, he always came
He spat at me disgustingly
Abused my body totally
But worst of all, so young the kid
The mental torment comes with it

The time my parents got behind
How bad was treated their own kind
The guy was stopped all verbally
No action made him feel sorry
The case was silenced icy cold
A stainless name as front was hold
Hence time had brought denial me
Suppressing effects thoroughly

Some girlfriends came, the years went by
It didn't work, I turned out gay
My cruel fate had made me love
The gender wich had gained my wroth
My mind was torn apart anew
Confused by yearn and hate all two
Competing like that twelve years old
An adult just his story told.